Sunday, December 30, 2007


a happy goodbye..is there ever such a thing?

hm. (yes this is the "deep and philosophical" post about the year that has passed)

2007.

everyone usually goes, "yeah..this last year?? ups and downs..y'know?"

I would say that 2007 was a year of mostly...downs for me.

0001 hours, Jan 1 2007 was spent searching the VIP room of Passion for Nigel. He was busy getting everyone in. The new year's kiss was postponed till about half an hour later. Such a sad situation, everyone hugging and kissing each other wishing "Happy New Year!" amidst cat-calling and fireworks, and me (and Tasha too) searching for our boyfriends. ppfft. I'm not one to believe in crappy things such as this, but I think this is one exception; how you spend the first minute of your new year kinda mirrors the rest of the year. My childhood friend's mom passes away.

Down.

The month of Jan was when the first YF-er of my generation left. Justin Wong. That day was the day I got my AS results. 4As.

Up.

Uncertainty in the 2 1/2 year relationship creeps in. The wall builds up and it gets harder to talk to my "best friend" since form 2. I almost lost a good friend from college due to a misunderstanding.

Down.

Everyone starts having problems of their own, Edmund,Mel, Joe, Aud, Saran, Naz, Sheekira, Kim, Tasha. The months of Feb to March were the worst months. I remember Joe, Mel and I sitting in AC, feeling incredulous about the bleakness of the situation. "OMG it's just the start of the year wei, how the F**K are we gonna last the rest of it mannnn.."- Mel.

Down.

Ann became a good friend.

Up.

My grandfather passes away. I promise to do well and get into a good university and study Law. For him.

Down.

Nigel comes back, A2 Trials. Bad combination. For the first time in my life, I let my feelings cloud my practicality. Not being able to study, overanalysing, calling Ann, Mel, Joe, and crying my heart out. We go on a "break". I decide not to think about anything to do with him and concentrate on A2. I think that was one of the best decisions of my life. That was what saved me from totally bombing the exams.

Down.

AlexWung, Tzin, Saran. Three people that made Mohan bearable. Tzin for all the explanations of weird questions. Saran for all the weird things she does, like smack my bum, and freaking out. AlexWung, for being the idiot that he is, talking back to Mohan and distracting him. I made a good friend.

Up.

A2 exams. OMG.

Down.

holeeeeedaysss. not that much good comes from it. Lost myself for a bit there. Lost a good friend who cared for me more than anyone should. the break-up is final. being thrown off course. yikes.
being without someone i always had since i was 14. not good. Thank GOD for Alex, Ann, Mel, Joe, and everyone else who was there who heard my gripes, wiped my tears. Met alot of new people. Rekindled old and long lost friendships - IanYun. :) Made new friendships. Ones that will last a lifetime? Maybe.

Up/Down.

A2 Results.

Down.

Going away from everything familiar. Though I must say, having a mango in UK helped tons.:) We've had our differences, but it's tough to find another person who can go on about a certain topic for hours and not tire...so thank you, Shaun, for being the offensive idiot that you are.:P.

Up.

Lost yet another good friend, one that I, admittedly, have neglected. But hopefully that will change.

Down.

Warwick. What can I say. Scandals Schmandals. BAD. Made good friends though, Pingaboo, Gerald, Eugene, Angeline, Jer, hallmateys...Ian, Oliver, SueBee, Nat - pillars. Oh and Nigel too I suppose.Things are fine now between us, and hopefully the bestfriendness will come back soon. Learnt alot.

Down?Up? Mostly Up i guess.

Coming home.

Up.Up.Up.

Present time:

It's impossible to sum up one's entire year in a single blogpost, but those of you who have been here since the start of 07 would know how bad it was. Of course, now I think I can say I'm quite alright, recovered from the pain? But at that time, whoo hoo was it baaaad. It felt like everything came crashing down at the same time, and if it wasn't for the wonderful friends I have, I would've gg-ed myself straight to the dumps.haha. This year was a looooooooong one, and one that I wanted to end as soon as it started. It feels as if three, not one, years have passed.

Maybe it's because I've experienced so much. Loss and gain of love. Life and death. Change that determines career. Growing up and away from home. I can't say I remember many good things (as you can see most of the things up there are DOWNs) but I guess the one good thing that came out of those downs was that I learnt something from each of them, and have grown wiser(??)..well, hopefully.

About the crazy little thing called love? Confused is what explains me. Still am, doubt it if I'm able to love, and love freely without inhibitions or ego.Yet.

A wise Leonard once said "I guess you learn, and keep on learning from what you experience. One day I'm sure you'll be okay again"..*or something along those lines..I don't remember much amidst the tears in that night bus back to Holborn*

Feeling cold and detached have become a part of me this year. To someone who hardly ever feels down in the dumps, the one with the biggest goofiest smile every morning, the energizer bunny who annoys people no end with her chatter - that has been the one thing that held me back, pulled me down.

A year of change. Growing pains. It's over. THANKFULLY. I guess I can say I've come out older and smarter. heehee.

EnLi's New Year resolutions:
-No grudges.
-No drugs, smoking, excessive drinking.
-Wake up for early lectures and do weekly/daily readings.
-Try to get up and go to church.
-No falling in love too easily.
-Make good friends and KEEP em.

:)

I wave a happy goodbye to 2007!

PS: you know how they always say College friends go away after awhile and it's the High School ones that matter? UTTER BOLLOCKS! I heart PL2!!

Francis said "Remember..but also, remember to forget.." and so I shall..put 2007 behind me, but remember the lessons ive learnt (numerous ones).

I cant waste time so give it a moment,
I realise that nothing's broken,
No need to worry about everything I've done,
Live every second like it was my last one,
Don't look back, got a new direction,
I loved you once 'cause i needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do,
You're on my heart just like a tattoo.

To the year 2008 and may it be less painful than this year!:D

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

.enz.

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six degrees of separation

:)

it was a loongggg three months that i had to be separated from the cutest little boy (i wanted to say the love of my life but i think thats OTT paedophilic) that I know..

but i came back, and he remembers me. he still kisses me, but as usual it's only one a day. but who am i to complain?

he's "3 years and 8 months old"..and getting cuter by the day.

juuust lookit him...awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

"eni jie jie! i want get seashells!"

"no ethan, we're leaving soon, if you're all dirty again then what will mama say?"

"mm...*looks over balcony* STA FISH! See Seee!!"

"where?!where?!"oh there issit. oh look ethan! what's that?"

"..wat??"

"there..that big brown round thing.."

"that's...that's a football!!"

"no ethan, of course it's not a football, its a coconut!"

"co-co-..nut"

"yup clever boy!"

"*giggle*"

*siiighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*i hope hope hope hope he still remembers me in 6 months' time. sniffffffffff.

:'(

:'(

it was a loongggggg one year that i did not see my big bro; the one who's pissed off half the time and annoyed the other; the one who tells me he loves me and declares that any boy who comes within 5 meters of me shall feel the wrath of LEE JIA LIANG GANSTA OF BANGSAR...lol; the one whom i've known since i was 10;and out of those 9 years ive known him we were probably fighting for 4 and a half years.
when we're not fighting..:D

seeing him brings back many many memories of my 14/15/16 yo self. and im going to miss him like sheeeeeeeeeeeeeet when i go back to UK and he goes back to Aussie.

this "home-coming" of mine brought a new addition to the people im going to miss when i go back...LEE JIA CHYUEN. the 16 yo kid brother of my brother. which makes him..my lil bro by default? though admitting that would be a gross indecency to my real kid brother * of whom I am IMMENSELY PROUD OF because he stood up in church today to testify about God's grace and MERCY when it came to his 7As*.

Chyuen is the very much better version of Liang. hehe *hi5 chyuen*to a certain extent i think he is a tad bit more mature than his elder bro. tee hee. aaanyways. his presence in Liang's car is very much appreciated, esp when the big bro is in one of his "moods".

:)
wit my bro, and the bro of my bro.

yes yes. indeedy. dont u think both the lil boys are shoooo cuteeee:)

haihs. back to being depressed. I DONT WANNA GO BACCCCCCCCCCCCCCCK!:'(


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Friday, December 28, 2007


this new year's...

okay bimbo post up ahead.:)

so right, i was trying to be all deep and philosophical about the coming of a new year, and leaving things behind and letting go...bla bla bla.

i thought, "okay, my first minute of my new year HAS to be spent being happy, cuz it mirrors what the rest of my year will be like.." (judging from past experiences)

the past few new year's eves have been spent with the boyfriend(now ex lah of course)...

AND THEN YOU KNOW WHAT I REALISED??~~!!

for the first time in three years, I will have no one specific to kiss "Happy New Year!"

!!!!!!!!!

aiyoooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

..told you it was a bimbotic post.heh.

got two-days-late xmas pressies..okay lah just two presents only..but theyre not singular, hence plural form. (ok sounding stupid again)

so happiee.hope the ppl like it:)

OH MY BROTHER GOT 7AS FOR HIS PMR. (god knows how.must be divine intervention)

2 thumbs up bro! was thinking of buyin him a PSP. but then i thought, he was just lucky anyway, so why reward him for something he didnt work hard for sheesh.

ooh it's one. hve to gooo...

shit lah this time next week ill be back in warwick.damn pei.=.=

.enz.

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Wednesday, December 26, 2007


things

tort essay status: not done.

MELS essay status: not done.

Studying for Prop Law: not done.

Studying for Crim Law: not done.

I am so screwed.

I cant believe Im going back to warwick so soon weii!!!

Next thurs I'll be flying back..nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

yish.freaking hate UK.

the nigel called today.woke me up.WOW thats a first hahhahahaah!

stress la streeeessss!

o.O

ok im going to clean my room now cuz it looks as if a tornado just ran through it.

gonna watch movie laters with kor.

:P

byee!

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Tuesday, December 25, 2007


summary.

from the 19th to the 23rd: EnLi was in Penang for Consecrate2Conquer YF Camp 2007.

from the 23rd to the 25th: EnLi was (as usual) busy with Xmas Prep.

:)

The air's cleared now, and thankfully I think/hope that my brain's back in order.

It's a new day, a new life, and I'm feeeling....good.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year (if i dont blog before then) to all!:D



Song lyrics | Over It lyrics

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Monday, December 17, 2007


not ready to make nice.

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting.

this post is dedicated to my very good friend who is languishing in Sapa, Vietnam a.k.a nowhere.

we were having a rather interesting conversation when his battery ran out and he lost contact with the outside world haha.

summary:

love is like cocaine. when you're in, you're on top of the world. when you're out, all you can think of is how to get in again. you find substitutes but they hardly ever work, and even if they do it's only for a short while that you can pretend that what you have is the real thing. you're hooked after the first sniff/snort/whateveryoucallit.

what a pair of pessimistic fools.

at one point he even said "omgla enli...STAY AWAY FROM MEE.."

at which point i changed my nickname to "enns=cocaine"

AAAAAHAHAHHA.funnyla.

got woken up at 8 (!!) today by an IDIOT who wanted me to teman him to go change his license from P to er..the normal one la.

we went to the JPJ..there the one that's DAAAmn efficient.no im not being sarcastic.*remember tht shaun?OH YAH WELCOME BACK!:)*

n then ate the best kueyteow soup ive had for a long time.now that im all fat and fed, i shall retire to my couch, to munch on cookies and watch korean dramas.

toodles :)

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Friday, December 14, 2007


schoolgirl crushes.

rawr.
dont u just hate it.


the feeling when your words get stuck in your throat and youre left stuttering like a fish out of water.


the feeling when u just dont-freaking-know what the hell is going on between you and said crush.


when half a minute you're like okay maybe he does like me, and the other half ur just like...we-ll maybe hes just being nice. maybe its just some fling.


the feeling where you think that there's absolute nothing in common between you and said crush but you feel squooshy whenever u think about him ANYWAY and then feel like slapping yourself silly afterwards for feeling like that when you're already 19 and way too old for this sort of thing.

the feeling of not being able to stop talking about him to his friends, your friends, and overanalysing every little thing from how he went offline without saying bye, facebook notifications(!!), yadda yadda.

the feeling of wanting to tear your hair out because you JUST DONT KNOW WHAT THE FREAKING HELL IS GOING ON. and you yourself dont really know what you want either, just that there's the niggling squooshy feeling in you whenever you think about him.


the feeling of your heart stopping when he signs in, and you think three times before clicking on his nickname and then another 3 minutes before you say hi. wait, scratch that. you purposely do not click on his name, and you wait for him to say hi to you, feeling so afraid that he wouldnt and then GEE WHAT WOULD you dooooo!?

the feeling of being irritated at every little thing he says or does that goes against the liking you part of the squooshy feeling. when you try to flirtt and he deadpans. rawrr.

there's a reason as to why they're called "crushes".
gah. i feel sooooo small kid and school girl you wouldnt believe.=.=

there he goes again.WHATS HIS DEAL MAN SIGNING IN AND OUT.dulan.

k lar ive been idling my brain too long.have.to start.my assignments.

.enz.

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Thursday, December 13, 2007


IM BACK.

:)

i can be reached at my old number.

loves.(;

.enz.

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::Oceanus::
EnLi.
19.
complicated is synonymous.
so NOT the prim and proper lady.
chocolates and crisps<3.
on the brink of a new chapter in life
and you're coming with me:)



::On the sea::

It keeps eternal whisperings around
Desolate shores, and with its mighty swell
Gluts twice ten thousand Caverns, till the spell
Of Hecate leaves them their old shadowy sound.
Often 'tis in such gentle temper found,
That scarcely will the very smallest shell
Be mov'd for days from where it sometime fell,
When last the winds of Heaven were unbound.
Oh ye! who have your eye-balls vex'd and tir'd,
Feast them upon the wideness of the Sea;
Oh ye! whose ears are dinn'd with uproar rude,
Or fed too much with cloying melody -
Sit ye near some old Cavern's Mouth, and brood
Until ye start, as if the sea-nymphs quir'd!
- John Keats


::Sea Breeze::



::Precious Corals::

::Other Seas::

*lipeng the other princess
*saran the hot onion
*melly STILL the emoqueen
*darling sukyein
*ben the "best" DJ in Malacca:)
*12+1
*shaun the mango
*tall ian:)
*tzins:)
*sammie the teletubby
*visionary sueebee



::seashores::

the end of the beginning...?
What I learnt today...
another sheepish post..
*sheepish*
Happily Never After...
happy birthday to blueseasblueskies!
memories...
Sorry SueBee. I am Very Slow. And an Insomniac.
the forehead, nose and lips.
this is going to be a post full of self-pity.


::the Deep Blue Sea::
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