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Wednesday, July 30, 2008

memories...

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

hm.

it's wrong to feel like this..

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Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Sorry SueBee. I am Very Slow. And an Insomniac.

GEE whiz. this was tagged on the 7th of June. and I only got this now. as I couldnt sleep and began blog stalking.

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
hm. i guess when i feel that he's the one? (lol yes sorry i know i tend to be kinda "free" with my "the ones" but "the one" at "the right time" will be "the the one") definitely before 35 though, because after that i only have DanielChua*dies*:)

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
at the risk of sounding cliched, its reading a book. books are like a free passport to travel the world and thru time, and thru the minds of others.

3. If you have a close close close close friend since childhood who loves to take away whatever you like, including guys/girls, and he/she always wins, will you still consider him/her your friend?
hurms. anyone who LOVED doing that wouldnt be a true close friend..so..NOPE.

4. What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat ?
hMMm. i dont know. just exercise lar! more healthy:)

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
world peace. :D

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
not without money, but with sufficient money yes. i dont need oodles and oodles of the green paper to survive (ahem, green in US, multicolored in msia)

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
the ability to love.

8. What do you feel like doing, right now?
Cuddling up and sleeping.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
only if i know that he loves me too, or if hes gonna die and i need to tell him.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
A good leader, closet softie underneath the tough "miss independent" persona, a good cook who doesn't mind me not helping becuz im useless in the kitchen XD.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
honesty, trust, and the ability to love me without any condition.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
Suck-ups who betray their friends to get what they want.

13. What is your ambition?
marry a rich man (who loves me tons of course) - on a more serious side; as weird as this may sound coming from me, it's to be able to make a difference with the world, however little that difference may be.

14. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
How a person treats his family is usually how he or she really is. So, if they're rude and disrespectful to their own kin, what makes you think they will treat u nice once you get closer to them?

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
My God.

16. If you have a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick ?
Happy.Do-oh.

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
The part where I always expect too much from people.

18. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
All my problems? ALL? a combination of people, and if those few got together, you'd get my life story. *freaky thought*

19. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
10 years ah? i dont know. not married because im such an indecisive idiot?

20. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
I love how I can make ppl laugh, even if it is at my own expense.*dot dot dot*

Er I tag...Peijean, Lips, HuiEn, err err er er Sammy..er er er aiyah dunno la whoever's bothered to do tags...DO IT IF U CANT SLEEP.cuz now i feel damn sleepy so im going to bed. nights:)

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the forehead, nose and lips.

You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep,

I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep,
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.

~*~*

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks, now I'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out I'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait
I'm yours

~*~*

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

~*~*

I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin like a child now
cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
and I crinkle my nose
where ever it goes I always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

~*~*

four minutes of pure love:) just because the mom was in the room and i couldn't say it back, he HAD to make me smile, and laugh, and go "mmhmm.ya me too..yup yup.." to all the i love yous, the sweet words.

until the mother was asking who the heck that was who could make me so giggly even AFTER i put the phone down.

methinks this is #3? or was it #4?

:D

who's counting.

forehead+nose+lips!!

enz

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this is going to be a post full of self-pity.

so, Cap was telling me about this questionnaire set for the 50 Cleo Bachelors 2008 ( yea i know im sooo outdated but what the heck y'know?) and one of the questions were:

What is the sweetest thing a girl has done for you?

Q_Q

pardonnez moi for being a tad bit boastful but....BEEN THERE DONE AT LEAST 95% OF THE STUFF TO A GUY BEFOREEE!!!

ive done..hm..going to the guy's place as a surprise just to see the look on his face, and going to terrible lengths to surprise him....to the extent of being someone else..lol.

ive done...going to a guy's house just to give him a hug and THEN RUN BACK TO UNI for my class.

ive done...writing a diary stating my thoughts and hopes and dreams and fears...then giving it to the guy so he would know how i truly felt.

ive done... a photobook with cute lil captions...

ive done... drawing a card DRAWWWING. and then sending it by snail mail...

ive done stupid cute vids...ive done stupid slideshows.

....wait. i better not state all ive done...later ppl copy me. or WORSE. i cannot re-use my ideas..o.O

so i shall stop. but suffice to say, ive done enough.

DUDE I WISH I WAS A GUY. WITH MY BRAINS I WILL MAKE SURE I LOVE MY GF AND MAKE HER FEEL LIKE THE MOST SPECIAL GIRL IN THE WORLD. (either that or I will be gay)

sighs.

anyone who dares tell me im NOT sweet. will suffer en-li's emo wrath.

the ultimate question is....

if im so sweet, why am i not appreciated?

:C

selfpityselfpity.

maybe i have high expectations because humans naturally tend to think.."i should get back what i deserve".

LOL.

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaihs

SELF PITYINGGG TIMEEEEE...:C

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Sunday, July 20, 2008

"My sinuses are clogged up like shit causing my head to feel like a ton of nail polish and my nose feels like someone poured cement down it plus my throat is still ultra sensitive, I am moody and demanding besides the fact that I feel so merajuky and yearn to be spoilt but there's not a single person to do that.

Now, how can you blame a girl for being irritated and moody when that happens, huh?"

I AGREE PEI JEAN.

my head feels as heavy as (insert heaviest thing thought up) and there are a thousand hammers hammering my brains. my nose is watery cuz I'm currently sniffling at my piteous situation. i woke up with a sore throat (due to midnight KFC snacks) after only 3 hours of sleep to go to church; where it was so cold i wondered if i had died and gone to heaven, a COLD heaven. Didnt have enough sleep; tried to do something to my comp - which as u might guess, screwed my day up further as im totally clueless when it comes to IT. I cant even swallow and every time my mom/dad/brother comes into the room i feel like snapping at them for the hell of it. then i feel uber bad cuz they really dont irritate me at all..its just the pent up pissed-offness.

I am moody and demanding besides the fact that I feel so merajuky and yearn to be spoilt but there's not a single person to do that.

roar.

sniff.

i just need some lovin'. is that too much to askk??

:C

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Wednesday, July 2, 2008

I don't usually read blogs...

admittedly so. sorry PeiJean. I wonder how i spend my time online:S

anyway. simple things in life.

what do you like?

I like waking up in the morning, checking my phone for any calls, and seeing a cute message from a friend.

I like being woken up countless times by friends. I like mumbling into the phone that Im awake; only to hear them refuse to put down the phone till i actually get up and walk to the toilet (as if there's some hidden cam in my room that they can see...ooh voyeurism)

I like not eating the whole day, in anticipation of a huge all-you-can-eat buffet with the extended family in some hotel.

I like lying on my mommie's lap (yes i still do that..what to do im manja lol) watching late night tv and feeling her hands on my hair..complaining about the dryness and the split ends..and how she will send me for hair treatment soon.

I like bounding into my brother's room just as hes about to sleep. and jump on him; throwing the covers off and laughing like a madwoman..over nothing.. just to piss the hell out of him.

I like slipping into my dad's room when he's reading the newspaper; to see him look up and smile; open his arms and say "sweet heart.."

I like napping in the late afternoon, hear the birds sing outside my window at uni. And turn to the side, finding your face, and kissing you awake.

I like listening to songs and identifying with their meaning; not just the way they sound.

I like late night drives up to Genting; knowing that the person driving truly cares about you; amd is driving all the way up just so you can scream your lungs out at the unfair world. While you forget the presence of a friend that makes the unfairness of life dissapear.

I like fighting with close friends; because as much as you are annoyed with them, you know, deep down, that you're fighting because they care too much for you.

I like climbing up the rickety double decker bed in my best friend's room, and laugh about old times with her. And then climb down the precarious ladder; which through all these years, i still have not gotten used to.

I like dreaming about dreams online with kshen. talking about material stuff.

I like how the lifts go "whoosh" (listen for it and you'll hear it) when you go up. makes me feel closer to flying.

I like looking through my messy drawers at home; and finding random bits and pieces of my past - a note from zhiven..pictures of grinning church kids..a box of colour pencils i used in std 6..a cuckoo clock..wth..a half knitted scarf (more like quarter knit really)..and old phone.

I like listening to songs on a loop..letting the meaning seep into me as i go about doing my thing.

I like kisses on the forehead.

I like doodling on someone's arm.

I like reading shakespeare..one slow page at a time.

I like the sound of the msn pop-up when someone gets on. Especially if its an old friend I havent seen or talked to in ages.

I like knowing that I know my friends on a deeper level. Deeper than normal hi-bye friends.

I like cuddling.

I like holding your hand.

I like people ruffling my hair. even though i tell you i hate it cuz it shows how short i am.

I like piggy-backs.

I like being called a silly girl. in an affectionate way of course.

ah.. the simple things in life.

Things like this can make you cry...or laugh.. or smile.

Which one of the three does it make u feel like doing?

ahh.. the simple things in life.

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Take a bow

I heart rihanna's take a bow.:):)

Let me tell you a fairytale..

Boy sees girl from afar. Brown top, loose linen pants. Hair falling softly down her back. Her back is turned to him; she's talking to her friend..Wait..Is her friend..someone..he knows her friend!!!

"HEYYY!!!" he shouts. She whips her head around, just like you see in those hair commercials. He feels himself going deep red. *shitshitshit shes looking at me*

Her eyes search for the source of the shout. Her friend waves her hand in the direction of him. Her gaze falls upon his slouched shoulders. *typical emoboy wannabe cool*

Her friend walks up to him. "Hey who's your friend? She's cute.." He says with a smile.

"Tell her my number please??" The friend laughs, telling him how she was just telling her about him being very similar to her ex...

She gets his number. Laughs and thinks "Hmm two can play at this game"...

"Tell him..I don't want his number..........but. he can have mine if he wants.."

..and the rest is history.

one a half years later...

that moment of random flirtation has blossomed into a pretty cool friendship; a friendship that has always remained platonic because of...bad timing. nevertheless! a friendship truly treasured. a friendship that is always filled with bitching about respective partners, life, and why they never worked out.

In retrospect, it was a good thing nothing happened between the two. If not, they would just be a passing fling in each other's tumultous teenage lives. Like she said, "It's amazing we still talk after one and a half years..considering how randomly we met, and how we connected"

AWww. Real life fairytale. Lol of course i took the liberty of making it abit more interesting lah. But the gist of the story remains the same. and that girl did whip her head around all commercial like...in the words of the boy himself.

sigh.

on a..well. heavier note.

Don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

Call it delayed reaction..whatever.
Forgiveness might have been given.
But that doesn't mean the trust is there.
Thank you for showing me what you're about.
I don't trust you.
Never did.

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