Friday, December 14, 2007
dont u just hate it.
the feeling when your words get stuck in your throat and youre left stuttering like a fish out of water.
the feeling when u just dont-freaking-know what the hell is going on between you and said crush.
when half a minute you're like okay maybe he does like me, and the other half ur just like...we-ll maybe hes just being nice. maybe its just some fling.
the feeling where you think that there's absolute nothing in common between you and said crush but you feel squooshy whenever u think about him ANYWAY and then feel like slapping yourself silly afterwards for feeling like that when you're already 19 and way too old for this sort of thing.
the feeling of not being able to stop talking about him to his friends, your friends, and overanalysing every little thing from how he went offline without saying bye, facebook notifications(!!), yadda yadda.
the feeling of wanting to tear your hair out because you JUST DONT KNOW WHAT THE FREAKING HELL IS GOING ON. and you yourself dont really know what you want either, just that there's the niggling squooshy feeling in you whenever you think about him.
the feeling of your heart stopping when he signs in, and you think three times before clicking on his nickname and then another 3 minutes before you say hi. wait, scratch that. you purposely do not click on his name, and you wait for him to say hi to you, feeling so afraid that he wouldnt and then GEE WHAT WOULD you dooooo!?
the feeling of being irritated at every little thing he says or does that goes against the liking you part of the squooshy feeling. when you try to flirtt and he deadpans. rawrr.
there's a reason as to why they're called "crushes".
there he goes again.WHATS HIS DEAL MAN SIGNING IN AND OUT.dulan.
k lar ive been idling my brain too long.have.to start.my assignments.
.enz.
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